I am a metamorphosis of small boys?

I feel like I'm a metamorphosis of boys-as long as a woman, I like both, but not the kind of true love, but rather want to rape them, to satisfy my desire.

I am a 15 year old boy, now read the first.

My heart has a lot to say, but I do not know who you want to say, say fear they made fun of and contempt for me. Until some time ago, I plucked up courage, took up his pen to write down my business.

I feel like I'm a metamorphosis of boys-as long as a woman, I like both, but not the kind of true love, but rather want to rape them, to satisfy my desire.

I filled my mind is like these, go on like this, I'm afraid you can't afford. I don't know what happened to me.

In my childhood, my cousins were often play "police to catch the thief," the game.

How to play? that is, if the "police" catch "the thief", you can touch the "thief" by any part of the body. I was only a boy, so I when the "police", the other ones are girls, they become "thief". In the beginning, when I caught one of them, I just felt her arm or neck. Once again, I managed to squeeze in their possession chaos, as is comfortable. Later, I caught a "thief", boldly touched her lower body. That's what I have never seen, I find it very stimulating, and surprise and curiosity.

Since then, I was constantly in the aftertaste, want to be able to have an opportunity to let me touch it several times.

I do not know when, I've got "the winning tile down" habits, get pleasure is my head in the clouds. The year before, I thought of when I was a child of this game, I felt very sorry, sorry I why don't my penis try feeling! but thought together, I felt sick, feel very dirty. I why I like to talk with women, sometimes want to rape them.

The other day, I asked the students to borrow a small TV, home to want to play for a few days.

My other students know they say the TV set to go to his home. I agree with. Saturday afternoon, I'm going to find him, but he called out by the parents, went to work, only his sister at home, one year older than me. She looked for a small TV, says not interested. Suddenly, she leaned in and said to me, they all want to be very late, we rented A movie to see. I was very pleased to hear, just ask nothing! I will spend money to hire her. To this point, the original offer to rent a movie for her but regret, not dare to go. I encouraged her to say, the girls go to rent, other people won't think you're doing bad things. She thought for a promise, but Pro out said did not dare to go. I was very disappointed and angry, but that is not moving her and had to decide to rent.

To the video rental store, I pretend inadvertently look through the film, A film is worthy of A movie, the packaging is a naked woman, a piece of the leg, tummy and what attitude.

I was excited, but after feeling very nervous. I'd like to rent, can be looked and looked around, hesitated for a long time, was still afraid. I am afraid of other people to see me so young age went to see this film, I juggle. Later, I wandered down to stroll, anyway to find two less exposure of discs.

On my way back to her home, and I beamed, head full of fantasy, simply run to her home.

I can't wait to put the DVD in the hands were trembling excitement, you can see I'm not finished. Although the two films are exposed lens can be seen, but are not so completely, some important parts or missed. I think, these films together with her, then she vibrated, can titillate she and her one more time, but it became my longing for it.

Recently, I have a crush on a girl, very beautiful, learning achievement is also very good, but I don't know if she can bubble.

I always feel that she hate me, I am cold, sometimes I want to ask a few people out of her rape, lest I think of her day and night.

I am not very distorted?

I was very worried and scared.

The surrounding people, including my parents, they don't see me this way, you just put me as a child. I will face rising in the examination, the family hopes to me, I would also like to later be University, has a splendid future, I don't want my thoughts destroy themselves. What should I do? I--how?

Expert review (Li Fu):,

From sexual counseling, unattractive face problem is sexual anxiety.

This anxiety is derived from a psychological conflicts result, spoke with terminology that is more a collision conflict: adolescent sex of germinating, let him have to aspire to, this is the so-called "convergence"; and the living environment and they have internalized in the heart of sexual ethics, but does not allow him to think about, had to go to the "collision". This "convergence" and a "collision", became the moment occurred in a 5-year-old boy l in the minds of the outcome of the war, it will let him know how to choose and the anxiety and suffering.

How? answer to this question is in fact the answer why some people's sexual fantasy is so bizarre.

As part of a form of masturbation, sexual fantasy is one of the existing State of reality. Colloquial terms, is unable to meet the reality, the parties to make use of fantasy. From this point on, sexual fantasy is a healthy people have, since it is dissatisfaction, we have created and changed. As for the sexual fantasies of the diverse and extraordinary degree, is personalized. This can be used to describe a writer's works and visualize: Wu "fantasy" a journey, give us a description of the temple and ghosts stories; Pu songling's mind is one of the fantasy Fox images ... We can not. By the way want to continue, we are not difficult to come to the conclusion that some writers neutral descriptions are the result of a writer of fantasy, including sex bizarreAnd diverse, the far corner of the comparability of imagination, not to mention those who use the "mouth" in place of text.

Indeed, as regards sexual fantasy content whether health, such as for some unusual and prohibited sexual objects or sexual situations of fantasy is wrong, this is clearly a difficult to characterize and to answer questions.

Sexual counseling, first, that some people may have very slight infidelity fantasy (for example, a girl could imagine let the idea of a Prince charming or Idol gently kissed the forehead) and is seriously guilt; while others, on the bizarre and absurd fantasy can endure. This prompts us, the question is not whether the sexual fantasies of fantastic itself, but rather on a scientific understanding of sexual fantasy. Second, since it is a sexual fantasy, most people just think about it, will not be implemented. Our social norms and the requirements of morality, not what it is in fact what did — and this happens not only in sexual fantasy encounter, other aspects of life as well, such as fantasy through illegal means an overnight certainly not unusual, but the real facts of crime are rare.

About this bizarre sexual fantasy is not distorted, also need to change the perspective.

Metamorphosis of purported a tadpole to frog, this would have no moral bianchu color expression — a tadpole is normal, the metamorphosis of the frog is also normal. For his own sexual fantasy, no matter how distorted, as long as it is in the tadpoles and frog changes are normal, should be treated as an ordinary mind.

So, what should I do? since the unattractive face is a psychological conflicts, in theory, nothing so three approaches: first, regardless of sexual morality, put into practice; second, the visions by virtue of the power of sexual morality, sexual fantasy repression continues; the third is in the fantasy and sexual moral compromise between.

Obviously, only the first three are feasible. (Although the second way we strongly advocate. ) Which means that, beginning with the acceptance of sexual fantasies weird is a non-pathological, non-distorted, non-unhealthy masturbation, not to include sexual fantasy is thought not healthy and ethical performance of low-grade to criticism and negating; Secondly, to ensure that no acts on the fantasy, for example from some strong sexual stimulation in the environment. From psychology, lust is a kind of energy that it comply with the law of conservation of energy, can only convert cannot disappear. In other words, we cannot eliminate the lusts of their own, but have the ability to control his actions in moral and within the scope allowed by laws. Research has shown that sexual anxiety and a person's personality type, and major performance often is not the normal communication between men and women. This tip, corner should strengthen the normal communication with the opposite sex.

(Editors: Dr Peter Yu)